Jenna does College!

hold you in his arms you can feel his disease

2009-11-11T01:46:00.000-08:00

Everything will be okay in the end.

We will come out on the other side of this life

and everything will have worked out

just how it was suppose to.

That has been the basis of my belief system, well...

since I've really had a belief system...

Sometimes I forget it.

Sometimes that truth is lost in the fog of life.

But when I remember it;

When the night breaks and I can see once more;

the reunion between soul and belief is beautiful.

I've finally found what I've been looking for.

I'm finally somewhere that I fit in and belong.

Where it's easy to be who ever I am.

It really became clear last Saturday...

We were going to Seattle for the night.

Kirsten was driving, Becca sitting up front as navigator.

Mel and Laura in back. Me in the middle of them.

We were singing along to the Beatles.

It was nothing new, we listen to the Beatles almost daily.

We always sing along.

But somehow, right then, I was overwhelmed with how right it was.

It's so easy to be so close to them.

We're talking about getting a house next year.

We're renting a beach house over winter break.

I've found what I was afraid I wouldn't.

I love it here. I love the people here. I love the place.

But it's an odd juxtaposition...

My insane love for this place

paired with an intense longing for home.

I miss you. I miss home.

I miss Llewellyn Road and all things associated to it.

I miss hiking on hills overlooking the valley.

I MISS YOU.

But I love it here.

I can't wait to be home.

But I don't ever want to leave here.

It seems I'm down to blogging once a month.

It's because I'm so crazy busy there's no time.

I can't catch you up on what's happened in this month.

But I can inform you on the now.

I'm not going to be a music major.

I'm making this decision, not my aural skills professor.

And I feel so good about it that it's scary.

So far this year, I've learned to fear and hate music.

Music has destroyed my self esteem to the point where even my bass clarinet is more enemy than friend.

Do you remember how excited I was when it came? Mr. Nelson sent me the picture to remind me. I should NEVER hate bass clarinet. And I do right now.

Music will always be apart of me and my life.

Both here now and in the future.

I will take lessons and play in band.

Later I will play in groups and probably teach lessons.

Music will never leave me.

But right now, my passion for it has.

My faith in it has.

And I'm not willing to accept that as fate.

I'm not going to do something I don't love.

I've always had my doubts.

Remember this summer? Doubt was all I had.

I think this is fate.

I chose to be a music ed major because I knew the career associated to it and I knew I could be good at the job.

That's safety. That's trying to stay in a small pond.

I'm excited for my classes next semester.

I'm excited to see what I can become,

not as a musician, but as something else.

For the first time ever really, I'm truly living for the now.

I'm not feeling pressured or depressed and ignoring the present, living only for plans for the future.

I don't have a plan.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I have no clue what the future holds.

But I'm going to love the present.

And I'm going to trust in the future.

Because, as always, I'll come out the other side

and everything will be okay.

I love you

and I appreciate your support

in what is probably a lot more difficult for me than I'll ever really acknowledge.

See you soon.

redwoods grow old

2009-10-14T10:19:00.000-07:00

My breath shows in the gray that blurs the red of the few deciduous trees. It rained yesterday. I wanted to dance in it. But, it wasn't that type of rain. And I'm not a dancer.
It's fall, purely, simply autumn as I know it. Without the usual signs that scream it. But even still, it feels so right. Fall makes me miss certain past familiarities, relationships, activities and people. I don't associate you to fall, but being surrounded by fall hasn't made me miss you any less.
I miss the awkward, scary simplicity of that house, with it's vegetation and emptiness. How much time we spent together then. Sitting in the little living room at 3 in the morning.
I miss the vast, comfortable familiarity of that house, with it's annoying dog and it's yard. How you would just show up and eat my pizza. How you wouldn't even need to knock. How we would talk underneath the glow in the dark stars. How we would watch Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and play games.
I love how I've made my side of the room my home. With pictures of people and places. I love that my comforter is here with me. I love that in three more days there will be a break.
Fall's a social lonely season.
Meant for intimate gatherings and isolated wanderings.

This weekend, I will find nature.
Trees and sky and hills and water.
I will find a place to escape to.
I will play music that I'm good at and that makes me feel good.
I will write about you.

oh, it is love

2009-09-28T09:47:00.000-07:00

Last week was long, exhausting in every way, frustrating, upsetting, hard and overall not a good experience.
Thursday night I purchased train tickets.
Friday afternoon two of my friends met me when I got out of wind ensemble and drove me to the train station.
Friday night Zippy greeted me more enthusiastically than ever before in our lives.
Technically Saturday morning I went to bed in my room, with it's familiar layout and lighting, with my kitty in my arms.
Saturday I saw people. I talked to people. I hugged people. I ate a burrito at La Roca. I wanted to go hiking but it was just too hot.
Saturday night I went to bed in my comfortable wonderful bed and didn't mind being continuously woken up by Zippy.
Sunday morning I slept in and was woken up by my cat meowing at me.
Sunday, like so many times before, I drove to NAMS, knocked on the door and was let in by Mr. Nelson. We talked for over an hour while sorting through music. It was really really good for me.
Sunday afternoon, I got on the bus and left.
Sunday night I got off the train to find three of my friends waiting for me, running towards me to have an excited group hug. I was surprised to learn how much I had missed them having only known them a month and having only been gone two days.
Upon getting back into the dorm it was a more extreme version of that, Audrey and I running towards each other from seperate ends of the hall, so many people saying things like "Jenna! You're back! We missed you!" and being so glad to see people. It was amazing.
There were people I saw while home that I didn't realize just how much I really did miss them until we were walking towards each other. There were things that happened at home that I didn't really realize just how much I needed until they were happening. But it was better to learn how much I missed the people here, and how great it was to return to it.
I'm starting fresh, and I'm trying to hope for the best.
so much love to all of you

'til your finger nails break

2009-09-17T23:13:00.000-07:00

Dear Jenna,

Stop. Don't move. Release the tension in your shoulders. Let your arms, your hands, hang limp. Close your eyes. Remember.
Remember...

It's hot- the grass is almost crunchy beneath your bare feet.

You sit outside at the picnic table. For hours each day.

Bass Clarinet in hand.

You play to improve, you play for fun, you play to be good.

You play because of passion. You play because it makes you feel things you've never felt before. You play because getting to know the instrument is like a duck finally getting to swim in water. It clicks, it fits in your fingers, you can move with it's music. You've found what you love.

Remember that? Summer after freshman year? When you first really thought that music was what you were meant for?

You sit in the NAMS band room, it's dark out and it's growing foggy. You're playing the song. Actually playing it. The impossible hard impressive song that you didn't think you'd ever play. You're playing it. As you pack up he lightly hits your shoulder and tells you you'll go places. You want to believe him, but you just can't really believe him. But you want to go places.

You're doing what you love, better than you thought you could.

Remember that? When you were first starting to take lessons? When you first played the solo and felt good about who you were and what you could do?

Remember getting the voicemail during chem? "Jenna, It's Travis. It's here, it's beautiful, we'll be waiting for you."

Remember getting into All-State? (You were actually amazed)

Remember solo/ensemble? Growing so nervous. Having a crowd of people who believed in you, who thought you could do it, even though you sure didn't. Remember how you were nervous, and then you started to play and it was fine. You were doing what you loved so you knew it'd be okay. And it was. Remember when you won? Remember driving home and just screaming with joy? Calling Katie and getting to tell her that after everything, it happened!

Remember state? You were a wreck? Remember sitting on that bench in the sun, practically tearing your hair out, hardly holding in tears, Mr. Nelson next to you, telling you it was fine, that it didn't matter, everyone has off days. Remember when you found out you won? Sitting in the dark in your room refreshing the results over and over, finally seeing them posted, afraid to look and then the freak out when you saw?

Because of your passion!

That was the only thing that could have done it!

You worked hard, you worked really really hard, because of your passion.

Remember all the times you thought it wasn't worth it? All the times you cried, didn't play because you couldn't stand to hear yourself? Legitimately believed you were terrible? Remember that spring when (like many times before) you almost walked into Danny's office and demanded that he remove you from band?

Remember when you directed them for the first time?

Remember those lights and that feeling.

You knew. More than ever.

Remember when it came? When you opened the case for the first time?

But damn, it was hard. You had to work hard. You had to devote your life to it. Remember when you first thought you could do it?

Remembering standing on this campus, after working yourself practically to death to be good enough for your audition? How stressed you were because you wanted it so badly?

Oh Jenna.

You know.

You remember.

There's so much more than that.

But look at those past successes. None of them came easy. All them caused several break downs and a lot of tears. You didn't know or believe any of them were possible.

But there was that core group of people, and the group grew as you did. They believed. They were always right.

So, it's really fucking hard right now. It's been hard before. Maybe this is a new hard. But you're away from the belief behind you. You're learning to stand on your own.

It will be okay. If you want it, you can do it. Passion got you here. Passion can get you through here. Remember what you're coming from. Remember how badly you want to get where you're going.

Close your eyes.

Take a deep breath.

If you really need someone with you to believe in you, I'm right fucking here.

Love,

Yourself.

speak to me gently

2009-09-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

This morning my phone vibrated next to me at 5:30. Just like it did so many mornings of high school. I shut it off and let myself deeply appreciate laying in bed here, the dim light showing the features of what is already so much my home. After about 15 minutes I silently got up and dressed, taking socks and shoes (the same shoes that got muddy when walking with mom, dad and zippy when zippy decided to jump over the creek, the same shoes that left so many footprints in and around timberhill/chip ross park this summer, the same shoes that caught on fire at Tillicum and got so wet and muddy at rock creek), my ipod and cell phone and my keys and slipped out of the room. I erased the POLO from 'in room' on our Marco-Polo where are we board and wrote it next to "adventuring elsewhere / lost" instead. After splashing water on my face, as if thinking it would rinse the tired feeling away I was off at 5:59. Standing on the steps outside of my dorm I looked around at my dark, deserted beautiful campus. The black trees looming against the dark blue sky. The glow of the distant music building, the sprinklers shooting water across the field. I jogged through campus and out into the surrounding neighborhoods. It felt like I was back in Corvallis. At 6:50 I was back on campus. Standing on the same steps outside of my dorm I look around my bright, awakening beauitful campus. Since then I've showered and had breakfast and studied my minor key signatures.
Now, already almost 4 hours after waking up I'm again in bed. Sleep is heavy on my eyelids and I may well take a nap before moving on with the rest of my day.
At 11 I'm going to Christina's, my peer advisor, cafe hours. She said she'll help me with MacGamut (the IMPOSSIBLE ear training theory computer program that left me in the fetal position last night) and I want to talk to her about what it's like to be a music major here. I emailed my advisor yesterday to make an appointment with her (because I have class during her office hours), emailed Laura and we'll talk to her on the phone tonight and emailed Mr. Nelson. I'm just SO entirely unsure about the music major. I feel like I'm severely lacking some inherent ability and talent. I'm just not a singer. I don't have a good ear. If I practiced singing and ear training and such 5 hours a day maybe I could get by, but I don't have time to do that. I need to practice Bass Clarinet for lessons, Contrabass for wind ensemble and piano for theory. I'm in over my head. I'm honestly the very bottom of my class. I spend more time in the music building than any of my friends and still do worse than them on all the quizzes and such. I know I could be a band director, that was proven to me last year, but I don't know if I can get through the process beforehand. But it's not as simple as just changing to an English (or anything else really) major. If I'm not a music major how do I justify taking out the loans I am to go here? But I LOVE it here and absolutely do not want to leave. But it'd be better to transfer and do something I can get through then to flunk out of here doing something I'm just purely not talented enough for. It shouldn't be this hard. I'm suppose to be good at music. I WON STATE. WTF?! I shouldn't dread going to music classes. I shouldn't fail music quizzes. I shouldn't have to FORCE myself to go practice. Something just isn't right. But despite that, I still love it here so much. I feel like I belong here. I've always felt that. But now I know it.
I think I'm going to nap until 10, then get ready, go see Christina, go to theory, get lunch, go to french, go to stats, and then practice/read/do hw/study etc etc etc tonight.
One other thing though.. despite how much I love it here, I do miss a lot of you and a lot of places and a lot of things a fair amount, sometimes an almost overwhelming amount.

she thinks I am the one

2009-09-06T12:15:00.000-07:00

This is... so right, so simple and wonderful and natural. But...
This is also so hard, so complicated and exhausting and challenging. But...

I love it here.

Right now I'm in bed, with the window open so I can smell the rain I hear and the our clock is playing music that echoes throughout campus at noon and five. It's as if the grounds are singing. Offering me reassurance of belonging twice a day.

I love it.

The first week of classes ended with fire dancing and the most magnificant firework display of my life. That night we hung out in the lounge, I helped Audrey rearrange her room, which resulted in huge amounts of laughter. And I slept pantless since my roommate is home for the long weekend.

I love it.

Theory will kick my ass, but I'll work hard and get help from a lot of people and when I leave here I will have the skills to be a good band director and teach my students so it's not so hard for them. By taking bass clarinet lessons and playing it in U-Band and playing contrabass clarinet in Wind Ensemble I will leave this year so much better than I came in. It's killer hard and I'll spend more time in practice rooms than I ever imagined.

I love it.

I even like work. I like the people I work with and when I know information for someone I feel great, and when I don't... well... good thing i've always been a good liar...

Yesterday after work Mel and I headed over to the new music student thing. We all talked and they gave us a tour and then we headed over to the music themed house for a BBQ. It was great to sit there with people I know and don't know. To laugh and talk and listen to music. We left around 7 probably. Three friends and I then walked to the store to get food for our rooms and ended up with a big group of people in the lounge watching 10 things I hate about you and Wanted.

Even though there are times I miss Corvallis; La Roca burritos, American Dream cookies, Chip Ross Park, Bald Hill, familiar faces and hugs. I love it here. So, so, so much.

Today I work for three hours, need to do at least 45 minutes of practice for theory, at least 2 hours of bass clarinet and at least an hour of contrabass. Before the end of the weekend I need to do french homework (which is easy), figure out a plan and probably make an outline for my first paper, do more practice tomorrow, and should read my stats book. For now, I'm going to take a nap before heading to work. And hopefully wake up on time.
And then Tuesday, start another week.

it's sad and it's sweet

2009-09-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

Well, one day of classes done... a heck of a lot to go...
Work was okay, I pretty much just stood there and listened to Terry answer phone calls. It's kind of intimidating to work in the information center as a freshman who doesn't know anything, and I really hope that the schedule stays where I'm never there alone. I thought I worked 10-11, but really worked 11-12, so I woke up earlier than I needed to and didn't have any break for lunch. Today is my only day off for the week.
Today is also by far the best day of the week.
Yesterday was crazy. Theory 101 (aural skills) terrified me. I'm legitimately worried I'll fail it, lose my scholarship and have to drop out. But Audrey says they don't let that happen. Hope not. Music Biopics seems like it will be a lot more work than I expected, with lots of large papers and research. And, as cool as it is that we watch movies, we watch them outside of class when I'd like to be socializing, practicing, doing homework or sleeping. My french class seems like it will be my favorite. I LOVE the professor, she's like a young, friendlier, funnier, easier Langlois. I LOVE her. And, I understood everything she was saying. My stats professor is santa clause and I'm excited for that class because I think I'll understand the second time around. By the end of the day I was beat and cranky. I had a bagel at 10:30 and then was in class (or work) constant until 4. I woke up earlier than I had planned also. And was feeling really worried about music. Not to mention things aren't going smooth with the roommate. But I don't want to talk about that on here, other than that I'm really excited to have the dorm to myself again this weekend.
I'm going to go eat (and get some coffee), buy some staff paper at the bookstore, and then head to where I'll pretty much be living the next four years- the practice rooms. To work on theory, because I don't play piano and I don't sight sing. Shit on a stick. Then I have written theory (which I like the prof- she's my advisor, and it HAS to be better than aural), french and stats. I have a break from 3:00-3:30, and then am done for the day at 4:20. There's a men's soccer game at 5 that I think I'd like to go to if other people I know are, but depending on homework and energy level I may skip out on it.
Tomorrow is another hell day like yesterday, thursday is okay, same as today but with work, Friday is hellish also. And, it doesn't do any good to not have class until noon or later when your roommate wakes you up at 8.
Fun, fun, times.
Okay, that's enough wallowing for now.
I think you should call me. I like having phone conversations with people.

beside the silver sea

2009-08-30T12:50:00.000-07:00

I love it here more than I can possibly explain to you.

I've never felt like I belong somewhere more than I feel like I belong here.

It's just so right.

I love walking out the doors of the dorm every morning and seeing what I see.

I love getting to know people better.

I love figuring out what day to day life will be like.

I love it here.

I love fitting in.

I love being a part of this place.

I belong and I love belonging.

I'm so glad this is my new home.

I feel almost selfish having this place and not sharing it with you.

I haven't made close friendships yet, I don't have a core group. But I think that's best. I don't think that's something to rush into. I think that takes time and should be a gradual process. I have friends, I have people to eat with or talk to or hang out with, and that's good enough for me.

Because I so belong here, I'm confident the rest will come.

And I'm thrilled.

that's the way i like it

2009-08-28T22:00:00.000-07:00

Wow, the past two days have been crazy but really good. Tomorrow there's nothing on the schedule tomorrow until 7, Danielle doesn't come back until after 11, so I get to sleep in! Legit sleep in, no alarm or anything, for the first time in what seems like forever. I'm really looking forward to it. I have two goals for the weekend: get somewhere to buy milk, and do laundry.
Anyways... yesterday was urban plunge. It was kind of sucky. We were battling against blackberries, holly trees and tons of Ivy on swampy property of rich people. But it was a good bonding experience and I got to know people in my advising class and our student leader a lot better. Then was perspectives, a dinner lecture about homelessness. My table group was really nice and the lecture was actually really interesting. I was on the phone with mom/grandma and missed out on the hypnotist, but I was tired and it was my first time alone in forever, so I took my pants off, hung out in the dorm room, read MLIA and went to bed early. I feel like it was a great choice.
Today I tried to get in to my mailbox and failed. Then I went to practice before my audition. I played the song really well and then not so well in my audition. But he didn't have us sight read and I did nail the chromatic scale. He asked if I'd played contrabass and if I'd be willing to, I said I'd love to, that I'd always wanted to and never been able to. Hopefully that will get me into wind ensemble, but honestly... I don't really care what I'm placed in. After that I had my meeting with my advisor. She's really nice but gave me the "are you the laziest person evvvver" look when she found out I took AP stats and three years of french but was signing up for basics in both. Whatever, ease myself in.
Then I met with my supervisor, my job actually sounds excellent and easy enough. It pays pretty well too and she's really nice. She loves Corvallis, wants to work at the MU at OSU and has an addiction to New Morning Bakery. Needless to say, I love her.
Then I took a nap before registering and did all that stuff. I don't know my schedule w/o looking at it, but I have music theory every day, lessons on thursdays, french 101 almost every day, stats 160 almost every day, music biopics m/w/f. My latest class (only once a week) goes to 4:20, my earliest class ever is noon. EXCELLENT. I'll have band at nights and will need to do my performance attendence as part of the music major. There were no cool english classes left when I registered but I'm getting my cores out of the way.
After registering a bunch of us from my advising class went with our student leader to Hello Cupcake in downtown Tacoma. We rode the bus and I met a guy from upstairs who was really nice and talkative, too bad I can't remember his name. The cupcakes there were AMAZING, pretty much a life changing experience and I felt like I really connected with some of the girls in my class. I had pizza with some of the girls from my passages group and am now watching the wedding singer in the lounge with a small group of people.
Overall, things are going well. There are still ups and downs but I think that's too be expected. I miss you and love you and will try and add some pictures of the BEAUTIFUL campus for you soon.
PS- my windows are open some, and it's raining, and it smells like Oregon and I'm so glad I'm here.

my roots go down

2009-08-27T11:11:00.000-07:00

Passages was, in one word, wonderful. I started out entirely unsure about my group and my leaders. When we met for an hour that first day there was only 1 person I thought I could communicate, much less connect, with at all. I ended up sitting next to her roommate on the bus ride there (where we almost died, that's another story though) and she was really nice but not overly talkative so we both napped and appreciated the beautiful PNW. I ended up hanging out with her and Helen (her roommate and the girl from my group) during the overly enthusiastic welcome. Then we gathered and went back to our "tent-place" as our English major leader LoFo called it. Our leaders, Lauren and Megan, were amazing. I've never encountered people who are funnier than them. Lauren (LoFo) reminded me a lot of Ginger actually. Our group ended up bonding really well and really connecting. We had a blast together being "the awkward group". That night we did a dream circle under the stars (my idea) and woke up around 3AM being rained on, so we climbed into random tents and went to sleep. The next day we left for our day hike over an hour late, got really lost on the way there about 3 times, but eventually hit Dungeness Spit. It's this long narrow strip of land that extends out into the sound for 6 miles. We walked and talked and ate and got advice and reassurance and laughed and it was great times. There was a campfire the first and second night with HILLARIOUS skits by leaders and corny speeches that I, of course, loved. The second night I slept out under the stars and really let myself be reassured by the beauty of nature. That night there was a Hoe-Down, it was exhausting and crazy and dorky but surprisingly fun. The third day we napped almost all day and then did the Olympics because LoFo was leading it. My group got dead last in everything and I got sick trying to do the pie eating contest. I hate whipped cream, why did I try and eat a pie pan of it? We had our emotional closing group meeting and then went the campfire. At the end of it, a leader got up and told us The Lorax. From memory. Point a) I've never appreciated the story as much as I did sitting there, surrounded by some of the most beautiful nature I've encountered (I absolutely LOVE the sound!) and point b) that's my favorite book, and hearing it was the first time since getting here that I've known this IS where I belong. Afterwards my group walked out singing, all of us arm in arm with each other and our two leaders, said our goodbyes and got on the bus. Where the entire bus sang, it was like a more epic version of that Hermiston bus ride frosh year. I was in love and napped happily. So it was really good, it was comforting but challenging and I feel like I made some real connections. And I think I really needed time in nature. I'm spending a lot of time out on campus for that reason too, because it's so beautiful that it just calms you.
I got my work study job, I'm an info center assistant. I just scheduled an appointment with my supervisor, who seems really nice for tomorrow. I have books for the two classes I know of and will regester for my two other classes tomorrow after my meeting with my advisor. Tomorrow I also audition for placement into band. Exciting stuff. My roommate leaves for camp soon so I'll have the dorm to myself until about midnight on Saturday. Today I'm busy doing my perspectives stuff (urban plunge and a seminar type of thing), but these next few days would be a great time for a phone call or a skype date since when I'm in the room I'll have it to myself.
Anyway, I'm feeling excited for school again, and for that, I'm pretty relieved. Pictures soon to be posted on facebook.
Love you all.

It'll All Work Out, Eventually.

2009-08-23T23:15:00.000-07:00

Don't take this the wrong way.

I love it here. This is my dream school.

I still find myself staring around amazed that this is my new home.

My own personal Hogwarts.

Practicing here felt so right. Setting up my bass clarinet was like yeah... this is why I'm here, this is how I got here, I can do this. When Dumbledore died, Harry still beat Voldemorte. So I definately can do this.

When doing all of the millions of things they schedule to keep us busy for 12 hours solid I have so much fun.

Just now, we did a crazy scavenger hunt and it was WAY fun.

But other times... I dunno...

I knew everything wouldn't be wonderful all the time.

I like my roommate a lot and we get along really well but, I feel like she doesn't really know how to live with someone. There's not really schedule compromise. There's not really "yeah, you can stay up on your computer and I can go to bed." There's "okay, let's go to bed." Hopefully that will change when we're both set in schedules with classes and homework and such.

And I'm not bold at doing things I think others might not like. I'm not good at saying "well, it's late, I'm going to go practice, I'll try not to wake you when I come back."

Just like I'm not bold at doing things I think are shallow.

I'm not good at the "I'll be super outgoing and invite myself into your already seemingly established friendship and act like we're best friends when all we know is we both live in the basement."

I feel like it's early enough where I shouldn't worried about not having established friendships, kind of like that's not really possible at this point. But it seems to be for most people other than me and my roommate. And feeling like I shouldn't be worried about it doesn't make me less worried about it, instead, naturally, it makes me more so.

It's not that I'm homesick. I'd just kind of like my own schedule, some privacy, some flexibility, someone to talk to, someone who knows and understands me, and the occaisonal hug.

Or that's how I'm feeling right now. My first spot of emotions.

I know these will come and go and I hope that this is all perfectly normal. I leave for camping in the morning and I'm chosing not to worry about my audition (Oh, and I guess back when I formally declared I'd be going here last spring Dr Taylor- the then band director- came into WE and was really excited to announce to the bass clarinet player that I was coming and they all know all about me and he's really excited to meet me. Audrey, the RA who lives next door to me and is a music ed major was telling me this last night, when she found out who I was).

I think having the next week apart will be good for us (my roommate and I) and I hope that once I get some sleep, I'll wake up in the morning feeling all better and not wishing a few of you were also going to school year for some support and general company.

I'll post Thursday hopefully.

I'm on my way

2009-08-22T14:48:00.000-07:00

Not much to add to the most recent update you've read or recieved (see my facebook note). Met my advisor today, she seems really fun. Have started figuring out schedule stuff. Definately looking at the at least the English minor if not major, will go talk to the English department soon at the academic fair. Right now I'm just in the room with the roommate (who's reading the new twilight book...) but plan on going to practice soon to [hopefully] avoid making a total fool of myself in my audition.
Thanks for reading, next time it'll be more interesting!